It was 17th May 2018. I was on a bus ride home wearing the same outfit as the night previously, with a feeling I had never experienced before, I couldn't place it. I'd left my ex's house after spending the night there after our first date. It was my second date with a women. I … Continue reading I hope…
...Secondary school, the place that sucked out my soul like a dementor with its get in line bullshit. Straighten up your tie and pull your skirt down wait hold up why are you looking at a girls skirt for... why is that relevant to education? Oh and button up your shirt…why? so you can suffocate … Continue reading Rewind… when did my problems begin?
I'm back. It's going to take a lot more than that to knock me down after the month I've had where I was doing so well. I had quit smoking, been eating healthy, been learning new skills, reading more, writing more, keeping my house in order, reflecting and improving my self esteem. Yesterday was just … Continue reading A new chapter
There is a stillness this afternoon. Rays of sunshine come through the blinds. The noise that clogged up my head ceases to exist. Peace and clarity has washed over me now I have finally listened. All these fearful thoughts and feelings have lifted. This is the first time I have woken up in months or … Continue reading Peace Of Mind
The waves forcefully crashed against the rocks, we were the waves. Eventually the storm came to a halt and we drifted on, miles apart. The ego is triggered. Now you are provoked. You might be angry or feeling jealous. Intense emotions are bubbling away inside you and now you're in self-defence mode. Why? Well your … Continue reading MIND GAMES AND THE EGO
*squashes hot coffee cup all over my hand* When things go wrong sometimes you just lose your shit. My anger has always been something that fluctuates. On numerous occasions I have reacted to situations in very intense unnecessary ways. Kicking a bus stop like a mad women has to be up there with one of … Continue reading ‘Rage is a quiet thing…you think that you’ve tamed it. But its just lying in wait’